No matter how rich, beautiful, loved and kind you are or portray yourself to be, at some point you may encounter something or someone that alters how you see, experience and feel about life. An unexpected death of a loved one, an illness, a loss of wealth and income, divorce or an experience with violence; none of these circumstances discriminate when it comes to who it can effect.
Finding ourselves desperately grasping to hold onto our familiar life and reality is a real kick in the ass. It can leave us questioning our actions, wondering if we did something or didn't do something to bring this unwanted experience into our lives. For me it was a stage 4 metastatic breast cancer diagnosis in May of 2021.
I was always very mindful to keep spiritual protection around myself and my home to avoid energetic and physical harm. I had no idea that the danger would come from within my own body. As I laid there in the emergency room hooked up to an IV and a blood pressure monitor, I listened along with my mother as the doctor gave me my diagnosis. He was stunned by my calmness and said, "normally people fall apart when they get this diagnosis". One of the nurses who regularly checked on me called me their mystery patient. In other words how the hell are you still alive?
From the outside looking in, I guess I was strangely calm. I believe my spiritual practice and all the work I had done reprogramming my subconscious mind played a big part of my mindset and attitude. Perhaps I was just numb. But I'm still alive and kicking. I have no idea how long that may be. There are people who have lived 19 years or more with Stage 4 breast cancer and there are many who passed away.
In this blog I will share with you some wisdom and magical techniques to help you through some of those darker times we face in life as well as methods for applying magic to your day to day life.
This is NOT a blog about cancer. I make no claims that I have cured anything. I'm still receiving great medical care and I have an amazing oncologist. I have lost a lot as a result of my cancer journey but I've also gained a lot of beneficial insight into myself, my life and the world. My biggest blessing in all of this has been the wonderful friends and family who have been there for me at my worse and celebrated every improvement in my health. They are truly ride or die people and I love and appreciate them immensely.
It is my hope that you can find something in this blog that can assist you in living a magical life.