Our bodies are not meant to stay in constant motion, nor are we meant to be happy, understanding and useful during every waking hour. Our lives have various rhythms and cycles. It’s a wheel in motion. Part of this wheel is dark, introverted, angry and in need of recognition. We try so hard to move out of this space quickly fearing that we may get stuck in negative emotions. Those who are consciously on a spiritual path may feel that they have stepped off their path during these times. Past progress feels like an illusion as we fight to maintain some sense of balance and control. It is important during these times that we stop for a moment and allow ourselves the foresight to see how these bleak periods of time play such an intricate part of our development and well being. If we do this, we are able to utilize our “down time” in ways that are beneficial instead of painful.
The shadow side of our nature (depression, the need to avoid people, the desire to push someone down the stairs, anger, deep sadness and emptiness….) is a very important side of us. It is a calling to pull our attention inward and spend time with the part of ourselves that is often sacrificed to in order to bring home a paycheck, stay out of jail or keep the peace. It is the lost dream, the unused talent and the things we want to do but put off until “the right time”. It is the anger, resentment and hurt feelings that we have dismissed out of fear of being weak and vulnerable. It is that which is hidden, yet it still exists.
What emotions, feelings and needs are predominant at this time? What thoughts or memories are surfacing from the past? What urges are you feeling at this time (sexual, physical, mental, emotional and spiritual)? Examples: An urge to quit your job and do something completely different. A deep desire or need to leave your spouse or have an affair. Perhaps an urge to go no contact with members of your family. These feelings are coming from somewhere. I do not recommend doing anything drastic or making big changes during your shadow time. But do look at these urges or fantasies to see what is behind the desire or urge.
Make a list of these feelings that come up during the Shadow time. They can give you insight into changes that you may want to consider in your life. It may lead to a conversation with a spouse or family member about your needs within the relationship. Or it may lead to you looking into another line of work or career. Perhaps it will lead to a hobby that could develop into something bigger and financially rewarding.
Again, please don't make hasty decisions when you are in this phase. Examine how you feel and allow yourself to take steps and action when you are feeling calmer. The shadow isn't bad, it's just a part of us that we lock away. Very similar to the movie "Us" but a lot less creepy.
May you embrace your shadow as you walk in the light.